personal post - respect

hi everyone!! thank you for the support and the love i got on my last personal post. i've decided i'm going to continue with these, but do them once-a-month as a bonus post. i feel like they are a great thing to be able to look back on in a couple years as well as being a support to others. 

something i have noticed lately is the lack of respect that people have. my ceramics teacher brought this up in class the other day, and i haven't been able to get it out of my head ever since. he was talking about how one of his students in another class had knocked a mug off a shelf in another class, and walked away from it afterwards. it happened to be a mug my teacher had made and had for over 30 years. i liked what he had said about the issue. "the mug being broken didn't upset me. accidents happen, and that is okay. even him not helping me clean it up didn't upset me. the thing that upset me the most is that he didn't say he was sorry. that showed me he didn't have any respect." i just can't get over the lack of respect. saying things as simple as "please", "thank you", and "i'm sorry" isn't that hard to do and it makes the biggest difference in a situation. now, there are going to be people that are going to say that the problem is the youth and that we are beyond disrespectful. 1 - not all teenagers are bad teenagers. i have seen some teenagers do some amazing things. for example, there was a teacher coming into the school the other day, with their hands full of stuff. two of my classmates ran out to help her. one held the door while another helped her carry in her things. there are good youth in the world, i promise. and 2 - i have met some adults that have zero respect as well. i was at a church party last night, and my friend and i were helping clean up one of the games. we had to rinse out a bucket that got dirty during the game. the kitchen sinks were all being occupied, and the sinks in the bathroom were too small for the bucket to fit inside. there is a sink in the mother's room that was pretty big, so my friend and i went in there. we walked in talking, but not loudly or obnoxiously. we turned the corner and there was a mother with her young child. (before i go into the story, i want to say that this is in no way, shape, or form to diss on parents. parents have a very difficult job and i completely understand that it gets very tiring and frusturating at times. i have had a ton of experience with children so i know first hand. parents are amazing people with a very important job!) i said "hi" to the mother, and put the pot in the sink. she immedietly said back "hi, can you get out". i pulled the pot out and my friend and i left the room. i was upset, but not because she asked us to leave. i get it, she had a sleeping baby, and the water along with the clinking of the sink and pan can wake the baby up. i was upset because she was so rude about it. she could have asked us to leave in a nicer tone and i would have not thought twice about it. after we had left, a mother walked in with her toddler to change her diaper. when she walked in, the mother had told her the same thing she had told us, along with "there are changing tables in the bathroom". the mother of the toddler was so upset she left the party. she was upset for the same reason i was, lack of respect. respect is something that isn't very hard to show, and something that everyone should have and use often. next time you are in a situation where you can show respect, even if it's as simple as a "thank you", "please", "sorry", or even just changing the tone in your voice, make sure you use it. it is so simple but yet so very important 💜. 

-savannah

review - haters back off!!

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haters back off is about the crazy life of miranda sings, a youtube star, (check out her channel here)  and her rise to "fame". this character was created and played by colleen ballinger.

(left, miranda sings. right, colleen ballinger)
read more about colleen here

check out colleen's channel here

read more about the show here

watch the show here

(from left to right, erik stocklin - patrick [miranda's best friend], angela kinsey -bethany [miranda's mother], colleen ballinger - miranda sings, francesca reale - emily [miranda's sister], and steve little -jim [miranda's uncle]). 

i've been highly anticipating this show, even though i'm not the biggest miranda sings fan. i am a huge fan of colleen and did find the whole miranda idea super insane and i wanted to see more. i loved the book that her and her brother chris did, so i was excited to see this show!! i must say, i was incredibly surprised!! i didn't have super high hopes for this show. i thought it was going to be the same old, repetitive miranda we've seen for years. it totally wasn't!! the storyline and the characters in this show made it difficult to stop watching. (i'll be completely honest, i watched it in one sitting!!) colleen wasn't lying when she said we would fall in love with all of the characters! and may i say, miranda's sister, was totally not expecting that, but i loved her character so much! good job keeping it a surprise, colleen! and the storyline was constantly keeping us on our toes. what crazy thing is miranda going to do next? what crazy thing is uncle jim going to do to help her "rise to fame?" what is going to happen! i loved everything about the show except for the ending. i'm not going to spoil it, but it leaves you on a cliffhanger. i cannot stand when shows do that! especially if this show doesn't get renewed for a second season. (i have no doubt that it will, but i'm just saying, what if?) then you'll never know how it ends!!

rate - 9/10

thank you all for reading my review!! i hope i interested you in the show and that you check it out!! it is on netflix and only eight episodes, so you can totally binge it in one sitting like i did. please feel free to tweet me, @halseyxlilac, if you want to talk about the show!! and please check back next week for a new blog post!!

~ savannah 

personal post - trials

hi everyone!! this blog post is going to be a bit different. i am going to talk about something that's been on my mind lately, and if you guys like these, i'll do them once a month or every-other one. now, lets go on with the post!

everybody has trials. they may be minor to the point where you barely notice them, and they may consume your whole life. everybody has them, they are apart of being a human being. i don't think i've ever had a point in my life where i've only had small trials. when i was a very young child, i went through things that no child, let alone a grown adult, should ever have to go through. (i'm going to say it now, this is a background story that i'm telling so you get an idea when i get to my main point. i'm not looking for attention or sympathy, i've already moved on and forgiven the person that put me through this, so this isn't to single them out either. just some background. thats it.) it messed with my mental state so much, i had to block it out of my mind to be able to function properly. i had gone through other things as i got older that didn't help my mental state either. now, i'm almost 16, and i have a variety of different mental disorders. it makes life a lot more challenging. there are days where i feel like i can't control my own mind. i can't feel joy, i can't keep my thoughts straight or the way i want them to be, i can't function unless things are perfect, i can't do anything, even the simplist tasks like walking from one class to another, without shaking from nervousness. i also am very sick. when i was younger, i got every crazy sickness under the sun and was in the hospital very often. i did very well until i was diagnosed with mono 2 years ago. since then, i've been crazy sick. we've done every blood test under the sun to try to find out what it is. we still have no idea. recently, i've had a cold for almost a month straight and finally getting better. i have said for years now that all i want to do is "be healed". i want to wake up one day and be "normal" again. trials are called trials for a reason. i had an amazing seminary teacher that was always so supportive and kind, and always knew what to say. he came up to me one day and said "savannah, you were given this trial because you were strong enough to handle it." in that moment, i looked at trials in a completely different way. i didn't see them as things that tore me down and made me weak, i saw them as strengths and achievements. right now, i'm going through things that suck. but i was given these trials because i can handle them. i am strong enough to concer them. trials i had in the past, hey, i got through those! and i am so much stronger now because i went through them. and as much as i hate the things i went through and are currently going through, they are molding me into the person i'm supposed to be. they were my trials, and now they are my achievements. and the things i am going through, those will eventually be achievements as well. i will get better, slowly, day by day. i will live everyday with these trials until then. 

i wanted to share this because i want it to help somebody as much as it is helped me. everybody has trials, some small, and some huge, like mine. remember, hold on for just a little bit longer, and stay strong. things will get better. maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. but very very soon. keep your head up high 💜

-savannah

britt nicole album review!

hi everyone and welcome to my blog!! if it is your first time here, let me introduce myself and my blog for a minute!! i am savannah and i write about several different things on here. mainly reviews. but i also write about my favorites and other beauty/music/clothing related things. all of you long-term britt nicole fans might remember me as britt nicole fan blog (feel free to read my old britt nicole blog here) that i wrote a couple of years ago. if you feel like this blog is something you might be interested in, please feel free to sign up for email alerts and follow us on all of our social medias on the sidebar here ------->. 

i've been waiting since 2012 to finally be able to hear this, and thursday night i finally got to hear it!! and now, i get to tell all about this amazing album/artist!! i've been a fan of britt forever (since 2011 i think? don't quote me on it because i'm not 100% percent sure 😂) and she has been a huge inspiration to me throughout my life. britt's music has been there for me during the absolute hardest time of my life.  it is very inspirational (and not to mention great to dance to). i have a blog post coming out next friday that talks personally about my favorite artists, and britt is on it. if you want to know more about britt, you can check out her wiki page here, wait for my post next week, or check out my darling friend jaymie's blog (britt nicole glow) here!! now on with the review i've been itching to write for years!!

because i'm writing this on my phone,  (my internet crashed and i only have my 4G but i wanted to get this up asap!) i have to put any hyperlinks at the top of the page. so, if you want to check out britt's new album, click here to listen on spotify, or here to buy it on itunes. 

now, on with the review!!

this is by far, my favorite of all 4 (not including the acoustic ep or the remix album) britt nicole albums. this is a perfect mix of every part of britt's life - songs about her husband (josh, her 2 children (ella and adin [aj]), having fun with her friends, and, what she is most famous for, her christian/inspirational songs. this album really shows who britt nicole is and what is most important to her. i think the title of the album is perfect. it really shows what the album is truly about. 

1-through your eyes

"through your eyes" falls in the section 'christian' for me. it talks about how god is always there and the way you see yourself is completely different from the way he sees you. it is a beautiful, inspirational song and is very fitting not only as the first song on the album, but the first single as well. 

2-all the money

"all the money" is my favorite song so far!! this one is about love, so it falls in the 'husband' category. one of my favorite lyrics in this song is "but a car can't kiss goodnight, and a diamond can't hold me tight" another one is "all the money in the world, couldn't buy what i see in you. all the money in the world couldn't buy what i love about you". this song is a beautiful love song that perfectly describes britt and josh's relationship. i love everything about this song, the lyrics, the beat, the true love you can feel josh and britt have, just. everything. i hope that one day, in my future relationship, that this song will be completely accurate for me. 

3-better

this one is another one of my favorites. i would put it in the 'inspirational' category. i love the last lyric of this song "hey girl in the back of the classroom, just be strong." this one relates so personally to me and my mental illnesses that i fight everyday. some days, it is hard to stand up and be strong and believe that it will get better. the first time i heard this song, i totally started bawling. i felt like this song was for me and the struggles i've been struggling with for so long. this song is such an inspiration for people who are going through trials that are similar to mine. just. be. strong. and hold on. 

4-work of art

this song falls in the 'inspirational' category as well. it talks about how even though we might not look like the girls on the cover of vogue or societys standard of perfect, we are a work of art and every one of us is a work of art. every freckle, every scar, is a work of art. somebody on youtube said they think this is "gold" 2.0, and i 100% agree. 

5-fallin in love

this song totally gives me a the 1975 kinda vibe. like, i can totally see matty healy singing this song. it also has a total 80's vibe, which is also right up the 1975's alley (i totally want the 1975 to cover this song, if you can't tell). this song falls in the 'love' category. "i just want to keep on falling in love with you". it is a song that makes you want to get up and start dancing and singing along. 

6-be the change

this is a song that britt's been preforming live for the past year and i've been obsessed with, but i was so excited to hear the studio version, and it totally exceeded my expectations!! this song falls in the 'christian' category. this song is about being the change the world needs. being there for the broken, the lost, and everyone in between. i think it is a "the lost get found" 2.0. it has a very similar message. 

7-all day

this one falls in the 'mother' category. this is totally about ella and aj. they have a part in the beginning and the end where they are laughing and playing in the water (might be the bathtub, might be the pool, who knows), aj says momma, ella says "i love you mamma" and britt says "i love you ella, i love you aj!" it talks about the struggles that come with being a working mother. "i don't wanna miss nothin', i don't wanna miss one scar, one cry". it is a very touching song. you can feel how much she cares and loves her children in this song. she also talks about how god is with her babies when she can't be, which i thought was super cool. i hope to hear more songs about her life as a mother as life goes on. maybe even more kids later on? we'll see. 

8-pave

britt said that this song is for josh, but i think it goes for her whole family as well. ella also has a part in the beginning of this song as well, where she says "lets go to the mountain". one of the lyrics in this song is "if you want to jump from the top of the waterfall, climb up the mountain just to hear the call, swinging from the jungle, running for tomorrow, anywhere you want to go, i can pave the road" this song is about adventure, travel, and staying together. anywhere you want to go, i can pave the road. i will be by your side through thick and thin. this is another song that i hope i can relate to in my future relationship someday. 

9-no filter

i'll be quite honest, this song isn't my favorite one on the album. this is one of my least favorites on the album. this one i feel falls into the 'love' category or possibly the 'inspiration' category, but i'm not sure which. it talks about puting on a mask, and not showing the person we really are. it also talks about how we should remove the 'filter' and be who we really are. the lyrics to this song really confuse me and don't make clear sense to me. i feel like she's saying to put on a mask, or a 'filter' persay. i'm not quite sure about this one. we all have our least favorites, and this is one of mine. 

10-girls night out

this one falls in the 'friend' category. it is so upbeat and fun! it talks about having a fun night with your girlfriends, and 'no boys are allowed'. everybody totally needs a night out with their girlfriends every once-in-a-while. i love the "burger shack" part. it totally shows what a night out with your girlfriends is really, truely, about. 

11-after you

this is another one of my favorite ones!! this is another one that falls in the 'love' or 'christian' category, it totally works for either. "i'm not after the world, i'm after you". this song talks about how this person has been there through every step in her life. while she was finding who she truly is. i love this song because it is what i'm going through right now. i'm finding who i truly am and want to be. all i know is i'm not after the world. 

12-concrete

this song is again, one of those that can fall in either the 'love' or 'christian' category. "you and me are concrete". this song is about love being solid like concrete, like britt said in the song. "when we are in too deep, we're solid like concrete". it is a really good, highbeat song and i love it!!

13-heart of stone

this is the song i was the most excited for!! she also preformed this one live on her last tour! i loved it then, but i love it even more now. britt does a pretty cool rap part that i was not expecting at all. who knew she could lay down some killer beats?! this song is a super high-energy beat song with very inspirational beats. i am a dancer, and i am soooo dying to choreograph a hip-hop routine to this song!! maybe i'll post a video when its done. 

14-electric love

i listened to this song once, and i didn't like it at all! i was very disapointed with this song. i'm not a huge fan of the "electric love" part over and over again. this is the only song on this album (besides no filter) that i honestly didn't like!! maybe i'll warm up to it later on. who knows. 

thank you for reading my review today! i hope you find this helpful and useful! if you want to check out more britt nicole and the album, check out the links above!! 

until mext friday!!

savannah

review / covergirl ready, set, gorgeousfoundation, concealer, andpowder!

hi everyone!! i've been a slacker at posting lately. i moved a month ago and school started on the 11th for me. so life's been super crazy. thank goodness for a 3 day weekend!! i'll have tons of time to pre-write posts for the blog!! i'm trying to be tons more active on my social media's as well. so check them out on the sidebar ----->. now, onto the review!!

i have heard so many people talk about this foundation/concelealer/powder duo for a while. my favorite drugstore foundations are the revlon colorstay and the covergirl stay fabulous, which are both $10 a bottle, and this was only $6. i worried about how it would do, because of the huge price difference, so i went onto influenster and asked a question about it. 

and i had amazing responses that made me want to go out and get it asap

(if you want to know more about influenster, check out my last blog post.)

i told myself i couldn't buy it and try it until i finish up my bottle of foundation, because i didn't want to waste $10 to just go out and buy a different foundation, so that's what i did. i recently ran out and got this one. (along with the concealer and powder because i was out of those too). the first thing i noticed while trying it is that on the bottle, it says "oil free foundation". when i squeezed it on my hand, i noticed around the little circle of foundation there was a ring of oil. (i tried to get a picture but it didn't happen again after that.) i ignored it and put it on my face anyway. i didn't notice any oil on my face. i did notice that the shade i got (which is the lightest, 105 to be exact) was super dark. i was a little disapointed until i put the concealer on and it was super light (also 105). i now mix a little bit of the concealer in with the foundation so it more suits my color more. the foundation coverage isn't the best unless you build it up. it also tends to wear off after 4 hours (even when i use primer) which i can't stand. 

RATE / 7/10

WOULD I REPURCHASE? / MAYBE

the concealer is amazing! it is easy to blend and it covers everything. it isn't cakey and it doesn't crease. the color matches my skin tone absolutely perfect! by far, on my top 3 favorite drugstore concealer!

RATE / 10/10

WOULD I REPURCHASE? / YES

i only ever use translucent powder, so when i found out that there is no translucent powder in this line, i was quite upset. i got the lightest color they had, and it is too dark! #paleproblems. besides that, the powder is great. it sets your makeup, i haven't noticed any creasing yet, but i have noticed oil. not my favorite powder, but it'll do

RATE / 8/10

WOULD I REPURCHASE? / MAYBE

thank you guys for reading my post and dealing w/ me being a slacker!! i love you all tons, and i promise i'll be on top of the blog from now on. (well, i can't really promise, but i will try my hardest 😃) i would love to have a blog post up every day this week to make up, but i'm not sure how well that's gonna go 😭. hopefully well! 

so hopefully you will all here from me tomorrow!! until then...

savannah/candi

tresemmé beauty-full volume pre-wash conditioner and shampoo REVIEW! +influenster review

hi everyone! today i am going to review influenster and the new tresemmé shampoo and conditioner. please leave a comment or share it with your friends if you enjoyed!

if you don't know what influenster is, it is a site where you can review products, ask and answer questions, and post pictures of your favorite (or least favorite) products. influenster also sends you products for free based on things you positively reviewed, your snaps (mini questionaires), surveys sent to your email, and your social media count. the only thing that they ask you to do when sending you products is to try them and review them. i first heard about this from eleventh gorgeous, and i thought it was a scam. i thought they got your credit card information and charged you for the products they sent you. that is NOT true at all! they don't even ask for your credit information. they send you real products solemnly for testing purposes. and there is no charge for being an influenster. is it completely free to join and the products are free! you can get special brand vox boxes (for example - i got the tresemmé one that had the new shampoo and conditioner in it, they had a maybelline one recently that had two lipsticks) or you can get normal vox boxes, that are a lot like ipsy and birchbox boxes, where they have miscellaneous products. both are super cool and fun to get! i have had nothing but a positive experience with influenster and i recommend it to all of you. it is so easy, and so much fun to recieve and try out products. if you want to sign up for influenster, click the link right here -- https://www.influenster.com/r/1809496?utm_campaign=sum. 

rate / 10/10

now, onto the tresemmé part of the post!

influenster sent me the tresemmé vox box, which included the new shampoo and conditioner called the "tresemmé beauty-full volume pre-wash conditioner and shampoo". this shampoo and conditioner is a reverse routine, meaning you use the conditioner first to soften your hair, and the shampoo second to clean and wash away weight. when i first heard i was recieving this product and looked more into it, i was very sceptical. i wasn't sure if it was going to work at all. i tried it last night, and i can already tell a difference in my hair. it has more volume in it than it has since i started bleaching it. i was very amazed with this product and i plan on purchasing it again after i finish what i have. 

rate / 10/10

i hope you guys enjoyed reading my "2 in 1" blogpost! please let me know if you try out influenster or the shampoo and conditioner through social media (side bar over here ---->), email (candireviewsblog@gmail.com), or leaving a comment below. 

NOTE-- i recieved this product free  from influenster for testing and reviewing purposes, but all opinions are my own. 

until next time! 

savannah / candi

please forgive me!!!

i am sooo sorry for not posting in forever! i have missed you guys snd missed blogging! i was trying very hard to finish school without worrying about the blog. also, my internet was shut off because we were moving, so i haven't had internet for a bit, making it harder to post. thank goodness for 4G, amiright? thank you for all being so ridiculosly patient with me through everything. i have a pre-written blog post going up friday, and i also am supposed to be getting a voxbox from influenster in the mail that i plan on reviewing. i have many other blog posts planned, and i cannot wait for you to see them all!! 

kisses!!

-savannah / candi

my anxiety story! - living and managing with anxiety

this blog post is going to be a very personal post for me.  the reason i am sharing this is because i feel like it might help and benefit other people, as well as let me tell my story.  i want to be as personal and honest as i can with everyone, and this is a major part of me.  i hope to raise awareness to anxiety, as well as help those of you who are struggling with it.
as a young child, i had always been at a higher level than everyone else.  when i was 3 or 4, i started to read the street signs on the way to our house in vegas, and my parents would be very surprised that i knew what the signs said.  i excelled in kindergarten, was always praised by how smart i was and that i was the "smartest kid in the class" in 1st grade, and continued to excel up and until about 4th grade.  my fourth grade teacher was one of the worst people i have ever met.  she used to constantly tear me down and tell me things like that i was stupid, annoying, obnoxious, etc. one time, i was asked to read in class, and i was doing very well, but i messed up on one word.  instead of being a good teacher and telling me how to pronounce the word the right way, she waited until i was done reading and then laughed at me and yelled the right way to say it along with the word "stupid".  that is when i really started to hate going to school.  i came home and cried that day, starting to believe i actually was stupid. going into 5th grade, i was terrified.  my best friend was in a different class, i had (who i heard was.. and ended up being) an awful teacher, i could go on and on.  it ended up being really hard for me and my bestfriend to be friends because we were in two different classes, so i had become friends with these 2 girls in my class, who were really nice at the time.  it got to a point where everything i said was "stupid" and so they'd make fun of me and they'd kick my legs and i'd leave with bruises up and down my legs everyday.  i also had another girl in my class, who i wasn't friends with, who would steal from me and also make fun of me and the way i'd dress, act, everything i did was wrong in her eyes.  i left this part out in the beginning, but i'm going to add it here.  i started to dance in first grade, and i loved it.  it was a passion of mine.  i got on a competition team in 2nd grade and was on that dance team until my studio closed when i was in 4th grade.  i switched to a different studio. at first, the people there were absolutely amazing, and it was an amazing experience. my mom told all the other moms from my old studio that they should switch to the studio that i was going to.  the owner of the studio quickly drew her attention to the new girls, and pushed me to the side.  and on top of that, the girls started making fun of me for many things, one of which was the nasty bruises i always had on my legs, and calling me many other nasty things.  because the dance teacher wanted to please the new girls, she started putting me in the younger classes to please them.  she also, started picking on me and putting me down. so, on top of being teased by kids at school, i was also being teased by people in my dance class, even my dance teacher.  i decided at one point, i had had enough and that i wasn't going to let them win anymore.  the girl who stole from me all the time was making fun of me one day, so i wrote "what a fucking bitch" on the bottom of my assignment, and i cried through class.  when we had to turn the assignment in, i tore that off of the bottom of the paper and threw it on the floor.  we then had "secret scrap" (everybody knows what secret scrap is) and she picked that paper off of the floor.  she confronted me and told me she was going to turn it in to the principal.  i then cried all the way home, and locked myself in my room.  she never turned it into the principal, thank goodness, but she sure tried to scare me with it.  which really started my anxiety.  one of the other girls who would kick me everyday started kicking me again one day, so i called her a bitch and told her to get the hell away from me.  she then told my counselor, who called me down to her office, who from then till the end of the year i had to have weekly sessions with for my "anger", and the other girls got off scot-free.  my mom wouldn't let me quit dance till the end of the year, because they'd be out all of that money, so i had to suffer through that as well.  i was constantly terrified and almost always crying.  i decided that since i was done with elementary and we were all going to a new school, i would make new friends that would be better for me, and start fresh at a new school.

that next year, i reconnected with my best friend who was my best friend all the way through elementary except 5th grade.  we started to eat lunch together and hang out together.  we then sat with a new girl who came from korea and was in our p.e. class.  then, we all started inviting new people to sit with us and we became a whole new group of friends.  i felt super comfortable with my new friends, and felt like they were good people who would never hurt me like my past friends had.  i quit the dance team before school started, even though my mom made me try out, and the owner put me on the younger team, and we dropped out of team, but my mom made me continue classes.  i finally got out of classes in december of that year, because that's all i asked for my birthday, and i had officially become a dance dropout.  my new and improved life was amazing.  everything i had ever wanted.  my anxiety at that point went into almost a "remission" if that's possible.  i learned to calm down and breathe, and quit thinking of the worst scenario possible.  i also had quit swearing at that point in my life, which had benefitted me a ton.  i finished the year with flawless grades, amazing friends, and with a better life.

the next year, i had made even more really great friends, and we would talk all the time on facebook messenger.  so much, that i had fallen way behind in my school.  i trusted all of my friends with my whole life, and i didn't know what i would do without them.  i started opening up to my friends, and casually, they opened up back to me.  we all knew things about each other that only a couple other people knew.  then, one day, i started talking to this girl in my neighborhood who was really nice at the time, but had a completely attitude and standards than i did.  she got me back into swearing.  something i had worked so hard to get myself away from, and she dragged me back into it.  she wouldn't dress as appropriately as she probably should, and was so boy crazy it wasn't even crazy.  so, my friends and i would call her a slut and a whore behind her back.  she eventually found out, told the counselor,  and i was in the counselor's office for calling her a slut and a whore.  i started thinking back to where i was in 5th grade, in the counselor's office weekly getting lecture and lecture about my "anger issues" and how i'd needed to be nice to people.  my anxiety went insane, and i didn't talk to anybody for a whole week.  when i told all my friends about what happened, they helped calm me down and realize that i was alright.  a month after all of this had blown over and i had felt fine again, one of my friends had stabbed another one of my friends in the back, and i was stuck in the middle.  my anxiety again, had gone crazy.  that was a really hard point in my life, because i love them both and i din't know how to pick sides, nor did i want to.  so, i didn't.  but i had 2 friends who used to be really good friends and now hated each other and it was very difficult.  i ended that year split between people, and with my swearing habit back, and with constant anxiety.  i had a very hard time talking to my friends over the summer, because i was terrified that they'd think i was too clingy or too distant or too awkward or too whatever.  i started to think back to the constant anxiety i had throughout 5th grade, and how at one point i was so terrified that i would live like this the rest of my life that i thought taking my life was better than living like this.  and i thought i was going to have to go through it again.

beginning of 8th grade was another new school.  but the difference was that i wasn't starting new like i was at the last school.  i was going to stay with my friends and figure out my new life.  starting the new year, my friend who had stabbed my other friend in the back stabbed me and my best friend in the back, and we both had decided we were done and we were going to do our own thing.  at the time, i didn't ever really feel good so i went to go see my doctor.  we went and ran some tests, and i was diagnosed with mono, which caused me to be home a lot more than i wanted to be.  on top of that, my best friend who had helped me through a ton, was moving. it was very hard on me.  i felt like i hit a wall.  i was constantly having anxiety attacks, i was terrified to go to school, i was terrified everytime i'd walk out of one class to go to the next one, i'd be terrified to go to lunch, i was terrified of everything. when my best friend had left, i started sitting with one of my old friends and her new friends, which were all completely crazy and totally not my type.  i had a very hard time being around them, but that's the only place i felt i could go, despite the fact i had other friends who i loved that would gladly take me under their wing.  i felt as if i was going to disappoint them or they wouldn't like me anymore, so i pushed myself away from the people i loved because their opinion of me mattered too much to me, and i didn't want to get hurt. going forward through the year, i actually found that i really like these people that i had been with, and i had learned a ton from them.  they left the next year to go to an art school, and it was very difficult for me to let them leave believe it or not.

this year. up to current date.  i ended up going back and sitting with the chick who stabbed me in the back, and her friends.  i hang out with her friends more than her, but there are times that i do have to deal with her.  i don't really talk to my friends who go to the art school, and my friends from 7th grade, which makes me really sad.  i only have 3 people who i talk to frequently that i actually like. i get so nervous and scared that i make myself sick without even realizing it.   why am i going back to people who hurt me? why am i not talking to people i consider my really close friends? why am i avoiding everything? why do i make myself unhappy?  these are questions i ask myself on a daily basis.  the answer is, i don't know.  i would much rather go and be with my real friends, i'd much rather be happy.  i'd much rather live the life i dream of living.  there are so many other things i wish i was doing. but i'm not.  because i am afraid.  i am afraid that if i go back to people that are my close friends that i will do something wrong or embarrassing or offensive and ruin my chances.  i'm afraid of disappointment.  i'd rather be alone than disappointment.  i choose to avoid my friends and be with people i don't like because i am scared i will be disappointed.  i choose to be with people i can't stand because their opinions mean shit to me, while my friend's opinions mean so much and i'm terrified i will be disappointed by what they say.  i haven't talked to most of my friends since my birthday, which is in december.  and that breaks my heart.  i tend to come home and cry.  i have panic attacks on sundays at the thought of going back to school.  i have mental breakdowns on a daily basis because i'm scared.  my best friend invited me to go see her this weekend, and i had a massive mental breakdown and had to lie to her about why i couldn't go see her.  i am sick of living like this, in fear, in hopelessness.  it took me a while to realize i need help.  it wasn't until i was laying in my bed and wishing i was dead so i wouldn't be scared anymore.  until i actually thought suicide was an answer.  it isn't.  i need to go see a therapist, so i'm working to mentally prepare myself for that. i'm working on writing my thoughts down and, instead of keeping them for myself, send them to other people so i'm not keeping them for myself.  i'm trying to focus on the positive instead of the negative, as hard as that is, to try and keep from having daily breakdowns.  so far, it is helping.  i am trying to build up courage to talk to my friends and not be scared.  i'm working to try and avoid the people who have hurt me in the past, and move forward.  i am working to get help.  i am so sick of being unhealthy and being upset all the time, and i want to do everything i can to fix it.  and i hope that helps somebody else to realize that life is an amazing thing, and you can be happy if you really want to be.  i chose to tell my story not for sympathy, but for awareness. and to help others.  if i can get better and fix your life, you can too.  i will update as i start my recovery process and move forward in my life to help motivate some of you.

i hope for the best in all of us.  you, me, and everybody.  i hope we can continue to improve and get better.  and make this life the best that it can be.

all my love to all of you.  until next friday,
candi / savannah.

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iphone 6s review!

happy friday everybody! i recently switched my phone from an iphone 5s to an iphone 6s, which is my 3rd iphone.  (i had the iphone 4 before i had the 5s) and i thought i would review it for you today! let's hop right into it.

i got the rose gold (i call it pink) 64gb iphone 6s and my current carrier is at&t.  i had sprint with my last 2 iphones, but when at&t offered an unlimited plan that bundled with directv and was 10x cheaper than unlimited with sprint, we had to jump at the offer.  it was the best decision we have ever made.  so, if you are thinking about switching to at&t, do it.  that's beside the point, but i just thought i'd add that in there.  i never had updated my last phone because i had some problems with my older iphone when i updated it.  so, i had ios 7.3.  which was totally outdated and preceded to make my phone very slow.  i also could not download or update very many apps due to the fact that it had to be ios 8 or higher, which i did not have.  it is so nice to have ios 9 now.  it really makes my life easier on this phone.  i can do so much more!  if you are contemplating updating to ios 9, do it.  it has honestly made my life 1000000x easier, and i bet it will for you too.  my favorite thing about this phone, besides the color, #ofgb, my new carrier, and ios 9, is "hey siri".  it is so nice to be laying in my bed, with my phone across the room, wanting to know what time it is, or the date, or my song changed, and whatever else, and be able to just say "hey siri" and get a response without getting up.  i'm also obsessed with the updated, faster, finger scanner.  i can get my phone open without even seeing my lock screen!  the camera quality is amazing and i'm obsessed.  i love being able to take hq photos on my phone, and have a really great quality selfie.... lol.  the thing where you press on the screen and you can get a shortcut into the app is super annoying when you are trying to move the apps around, but otherwise very helpful.  i would recommend this phone to anyone who has the 5s and younger, but it is very similar to the 6 that i would wait until the 7.

RATE - 9/10
WOULD I RECOMMEND? - YES!!

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my skincare routine!!

this is a blog post i wrote back in march that was never posted. so, i'd thought i'd post it today. hope you enjoy!!

i've had several questions lately about my skin, and what i use to keep it clean! so, i thought i'd write a skincare routine on here for those of you that have any questions.  so, let's get into it.

i have mild acne.  i break out really bad before my menstrual cycle, just like most, but other than that, i have little to no acne.  i believe cleaning my face twice everyday and all the products i use have a hand in that, but then again, it may just be my skin.  

i have three different routines, a morning skincare routine, a night time skincare routine, and a sunday night skincare routine, which all are different from one another.  i'm going to start out with my morning skincare routine.

i start out by pulling my hair back out of my face, get my face wet with a towel, and then put my face cleanser on my face.  i use the cetaphil daily facial cleanser in the mornings, and it looks like this

i have used this cleanser since i started washing my face, which was when i was 10-11.  i have sensitive skin, and this helps a ton.  it is super gentle, and doesn't burn.  it also leaves my face feeling incredibly soft.  i have tons of "must-have" skincare products, all of which i am going to list in this post, but this one, by far, is the one i can't live without.

next, i put on some eye cream, which i feel is super important due to my awful dark circles and dehydrated under-eyes.  i currently use the mac fast-response eye cream which looks like this

this is a very pricy product and i am very aware of that.  this was given to me as a gift about two years ago, and i have used it everyday up to today, and i still have half a bottle left.  so, i got my money's worth out of it, but it is way too expensive to justify and i probably won't repurchase it.  it is an amazing product.  i am sick quite often, and on top of that i have a very hard time sleeping, so i have awful dark circles.  this product has helped my under eyes a ton.  there are mornings that i wake up and all that i can see when i look in the mirror is my dark circles protruding out.  the moment i put this on, i can see some of the dark coloring under my eyes almost disappear.  i have loved this product, but as i said earlier, it is really expensive and i probably won't repurchase.

lastly, i put on my moisturizer.  i use the aveeno positively radiant daily moisturizer, which looks like this

i have struggled with moisturizers for several years.  i have tried every drugstore moisturizer under the sun, and everything either burned my face or made me break out.  when i bought this one, i was impressed with what it did for my skin.  i could almost instantly see the change.  my skin didn't look dry or like it was peeling everywhere, it looked healthy and hydrated.  i can see the difference in my skin on the days that i skip moisturizing.  this moisturizer is pricy for a drug store moisturizer, but it is absolutely worth every penny.

now, onto my night face routine

i believe that making sure to remove your makeup is very important.  leaving your makeup on can cause really bad acne and a super greasy face.  i have had makeup removers burn my face, make my face more greasy and oily, and i've had some do a real crappy job removing my makeup.  until, i started using these.  i use the yes to cucumbers makeup removing wipes which look like this

these are amazing.  they take every bit of makeup off of my face, they don't burn, they don't put oil on my face, they just do what they are supposed to do, and what most makeup wipes fail to do, remove makeup.

i use a different cleanser at night because i love my cetaphil cleanser and i don't want my skin to get used to it and cause me to break out.  this face cleanser is a little more time-consuming compared to cetaphil, so it is perfect for my night routine.  i use the aveeno positively radiant brightening cleanser which looks like this

i love this cleanser for the same reasons i love cetaphil.  it cleans my face, it doesn't burn, it doesn't cause me to break out, it is gentle, and it makes my face soft.  it isn't as good as cetaphil, if i had to pick between this and cetaphil i would choose cetaphil, but it still is an amazing cleanser.  it is good to mix it up sometimes, for your face's sake.

then, i apply the same eye cream and moisturizer and go to bed!

my sunday night face routine is more of a pamper routine, but it does help my face.
i am trying to find a really good face mask and under eye circle mask to add to my routine. so, if you know of some good ones, please let me know!

i tend to take a warm bath on sundays, and just use a cheap bubble bath or do it with nothing in it.  i need to get some bath bombs and bubble bars from lush, but the closest lush to me is two hours away, and i'm scared to ship lush products because i'm scared they will be broken when they get here.  but besides the point, the bath helps open my pores because of the steam and such, so right after i get out, i scrub my face.  i either use the bath and body works golden sugar scrub which looks like this

or i use a homemade peppermint sugar scrub, that my best friend made me for christmas.
they both work about the same, they help get all the dead skin off of my face, they clean the dirt out of my pores, and they leave my skin feeling super soft.

after i finish scrubbing my face, i wash my face with my aveeno cleanser, and then i use a blackhead nose strip to help get the blackheads off of my nose. i use the biore deep cleaning nose strips which looks like this

these are amazing.  they pull tons of blackheads out of my nose, and also help to shrink my pores to help prevent future blackheads! it is so satisfying / gross to pull the strip off of my nose, and see all the blackheads that just came out!

and then i apply my eye cream and moisturizer, and that's it!

i hope this post helped you all find some new products for you all to try! please leave a comment below telling me your must-have skincare products!

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until next friday!
candi / savannah
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halsey - colors mv review!

i was going thru my old blog posts to try and organize my tabs, and i realized that in my badlands album review from back in august, the title said "bandlands" and not "badlands". shoot me now.
i know, this blog post is two weeks later than it should be.  i'm trying not to do all of my blog posts at once and then not having anything to blog about in a couple weeks after everything dies down.  so, with that being said, lets get onto the review!

when halsey announced that colors was going to be a single, i was a little bit disappointed but also very excited. i was disappointed because colors was the most popular song and i kind of thought she was taking the easy way out.  but then again, this IS halsey we are talking about, and halsey is an amazing creator and never takes the easy way out.  i know she had a plan for colors and made it a single for a reason, and i was excited to see what she was going to do with it.
she had been teasing things about the video for a very long time.  i knew going into the video that tyler posey was going to be in it, they were attending a school called "badlands academy" (total halsey thing to do, but i was still obsessed with the idea) and i knew she was going to wear a blonde wig.  i thought her and tyler posey were going to be in a relationship just like everybody else did, but just like everyone else, i was wrong.  and i kinda kick myself for it because it again is halsey and she likes to mix everything up and throw in surprises nobody quite expected.  i am obsessed with the storyline that goes with the video.  the secret polaroids that she would take and hide, her dolling herself up, her little "prep girl student" little attitude, but my favorite part has to be the part where she mouths the "you were red, and you liked me 'cause i was blue.  you touched me and suddenly i was a lilac sky. and you decided purple just wasn't for you" part.  it truly fit in perfect with the video and the meaning behind it.  i don't ever think i'll be sick of halsey.  everything she does is an art and it is never the same.

RATE / 10/10
WOULD I RECOMMEND? / YESSSSS!!

next week should be my iphone 6s review, if i can stay on my schedule!!
until next week!!
candi / savannah

review / fuller house

i know, fuller house came out on netflix a week ago and i'm reviewing it now.  like i mentioned in my last post, i am pre-writing posts so i don't fall behind in school, so, i'm writing this the day after fuller house was released on netflix.  just to make things clear(er).

i wouldn't say i grew up on full house, but i grew up on full house.  my brother and i used to watch it on nick@nite every saturday morning and on abc family everyday over the summer.  we loved full house and still do to this day.  when i found out this show was coming out, i was so excited.  besides getting new full houses with the continuation of dj, stephanie, and kimmy, i was ecstatic to find out that it was going to be on netflix!  i can (have been) binge-watch the whole first season!
the first episode made me cry.  even thinking about the first episode to write about it is making me tear up!! it was crazy to see everyone (except for michelle... olsen twins.....) all grown up and leaving the full house.  not only that, but the theme song in the beginning gave me major nostalgia and feels.  and at the end of the first episode, when everyone was leaving and dj was crying with tommy, and stephanie and kimmy said they'd move in to help, major crying moment!! i love dj's boys and kimmy's daughter.  jackson, dj's oldest, is a ton like dj was in the older episodes.  max, her middle child, has the spunk and attitude that stephanie had, and tommy's just a little baby, just like michelle was when the show first started.  kimmy's daughter, ramona, has her own little personality with a mix of gibbler.   i am obsessed with the slight shades that they throw at mary-kate and ashley olsen.  i think it is hilarious! way to teach them what they're missing out on! i'll admit, i was really scared that this show would be a flop.  everyone would build up this massive thing about how great the show was going to be, and then it would be nothing like the originals.  totally impressed with the show! it is a ton like the older ones, with a bit of a "2010's" vibe to it, which is totally what today's kids need.  i am currently on episode 6, but as soon as i am done watching this, i'm going to go binge it some more!!

RATE - 9/10
WOULD I RECOMMEND? - OF COURSE!

next week i will have a halsey colors mv review.  i know, that one will be vv late too! ugh! but i still wanted to write it!

until next week!
candi / savannah

review / tlc's rattled!

(keep in mind that i am pre-writing blog posts today so i can get blog posts up without falling behind in my schooling.)
hi everyone!  as most of you know, i am obsessed with reality tv.  when tlc first announced this show, i didn't think much of it.  i have also been off and on following the gardner quads (on my mom's facebook... lol.) for the past 6 months.  when i found out that the gardner's were on the show, i started watching.  i just finished the 2nd episode an hour ago, and the 3rd isn't out yet! when this is posted, the show will probably be 5 episodes in, so i'd just thought i'd mention where i'm at right now.  lets get into the review!

THE SHOW / WHAT IT IS ABOUT.
this show follows four couples.  mars and doug from ohio, destiny and sal from new jersey, jason and kristina from new york, and tyson and ashley from utah, who are all first time parents.  it follows all of the trials, struggles, and joy of being a first time parent.

MARS AND DOUG
mars and doug met on oh cupid, a dating site, and are now together.  mars is 27 and doug is 40.  they say despite the age difference, they have a lot in common and really love each other.  this is mars's first baby while this is doug's forth.  their baby was an accident, and they weren't together very long when mars conceived. they just moved in together and are starting to get ready for baby when mars goes into labor.  they give birth to a beautiful baby girl named sophia.

DESTINY AND SAL
destiny is from vegas, and is not your traditional girl. she is a model, a vegetarian, and soon-to-be mother.  sal on the other hand, grew up in a very traditional home. most of the men in sal's family are named sal, and if not sal something else, which i totally forgot, which is something sal wants to do with his family, while destiny is opposed to the idea. sal is also a soccer player and is not a vegetarian.  they are soon to give birth to a little girl named capri.

JASON AND KRISTINA
jason and kristina have been married for a year and a half, and decided to try to have a baby.  they own a business in downtown manhattan, and both are very invested in their business.  they have scheduled feedings and nap times set for their baby, and have tablets all over the house to remind them when it's time to feed their baby or put them down for a nap.  they say they do it so their baby can be on a schedule and sleep well thru the night.  they have a baby boy that they named lincoln.

ASHLEY AND TYSON
ashley and tyson are having quadruplets, which are all girls, and they are also 2 sets of identical twins.  they were conceived thru years of saving and going thru infertility. since ashley's pregnancy is so high risk, she is on strict hospital bed rest.  her doctor's goal is for her to go till 28 weeks, while her own personal goal is 30.  they meet in the middle at 29 weeks, when ashley's water broke.  they give birth to four premature baby girls - indie, esme, scarlett, and evangeline (evie).

REVIEW
i have really enjoyed the show so far.  it really shows how difficult it is to be a parent for the first time, and to see each couple's family grow and expand.  i can't wait for future episodes, and to see if they can still juggle parenthood and everything else life throws at them!

RATE - 9/10

WOULD I RECOMMEND? - YES!!

thanks for reading my review!! until next time...

candi/savannah

review! - sally hansen miracle gel nail polish

hi everybody!! i didn't post last week because i decided to redo the blog instead, and i'm very impressed with how it looks now!  please comment below and check out our social media's! (on the sidebar ------------->)  let's get started!
i recently have been eyeing these nail polishes, because i've wanted to do gel nails for a while now. i finally caved and bought a color and a top coat!  (i got the color "b girl" if you were curious, and i'm obsessed)  these are what they look like if you were curious

it comes with a nail polish color and a top coat. it is very easy to apply, base coat of nail polish, then a second coat, and then the top coat.  after you put on the top coat, the nail polish has a shiny, matte finish on your nails and looks amazing.  it is a very strong nail polish and stays that way on your nails.  i have had it on since tuesday and it is starting to crack and peel away, so it didn't last as much as i would have liked it too, but i am still very impressed with how it makes beautiful, gel nails without a heat lamp!  i would recommend this to anyone who has been thinking about doing gel nails.

RATE / 8/10
WOULD I RECOMMEND: YES!!

about candi! (about the author)

totally forgot to post last week, my apologies!!
i was writing down blog ideas for the month last night, and i had in mind the new readers i have had on here, as well as my mass amounts of new twitter (@halseyxlilac) and instagram (@iamtovelo) and thought i would do a little get to know me post.  i am already planning a ootw for next week's post (probably won't go up till next saturday :() so keep on the lookout for that next week! enough of all this, lets get into the post!
my real name is savannah.  candi is a fake online name i made up when i was younger because i didn't feel comfortable giving my name out.
i am a sagittarius and my birthday is december 17 (year isn't important...)
for me, music is the center of everything.  i always tend to have music playing.
my favorite artists to listen to are halsey, panic! at the disco, tove lo, melanie martinez, avril lavigne, adele, and a little bit of stuff i listened too when i was younger.  (britt nicole, cher lloyd, kelly clarkson, ellie goulding) i will listen to everything except country because i hate country.
my first blog was a britt nicole fan page that is still up if you feel like reading my embarrassing blog posts from 2 years ago (click here to read...) (btw, i shared that blogger account with one of my really good friends, she had her blog, and i had mine, but we shared the account)
i also love to clean and organize (i know, that's super weird, but i love having my life cleaned and organized!)
going on with things i love, i love to read, write, dance, color (i can't draw to save my life), go on long car rides, travel, social media, shopping, my phone, my friends and family, my bed, netflix (law and order svu is what i'm obsessing over currently), taking/having pictures, baths, hot tubs, california, disneyland, concerts, the beach, naps, hair and makeup, target,  and several other things i can't think of right now.
i am sick and have been undergoing blood testing for a year and a half now with no sure answer of what is wrong.  due to that, i do miss a lot of school and sleep a ton.  i tend to go for a nap over several other things lately.
i have the mouth of a sailor (thanks mom) and it will come out a ton
i also have really bad anxiety.  i have friends i haven't talked too for months because i'm afraid they won't like me anymore/think i'm really weird and i hate it more than the world.
i hate starting conversations due to it, i only really start conversations with my best friend.
i also have a tumblr that i don't post on very often, but i am always on (click here for my tumblr)
i am a "retired dancer" and i haven't danced for 4 years but i still stretch and do dance exercises everyday to keep my flexibility.
and there is so many more things you will find out about me while following this page and my instagram, tumblr, and twitter pages.
feel free to comment with any questions or to tell a little bit more about yourself! i will read and reply to them all (unless they are wayy too personal).
again, i will have an ootw and hopefully i will have the blog redone by next saturday!
until then,
candi / savannah

death of a bachelor - panic! at the disco REVIEW!!!

hi everyone! as many of you know, i love panic!.  they are my favorite band (even though they aren't technically a band anymore since it's just brendon and all) and yeah.  i've been waiting for this album to come out since hallelujah came out, and i've been counting down the days since i had a release date to count down.  january 15th.  just make it until january 15th.  and i made it.  i'm going to review every song one-by-one and then the album as a whole.
1 / VICTORIOUS
tonight, we are victorious. champagne pouring over us.  all my friends were glorious.  tonight, we are victorious.
victorious is the perfect way to start this album.  it is a victory/party anthem that i promise you i am blasting at my graduation party.  it is very high beat, and has ridiculously catchy lyrics. victorious is also one of those songs you blast when you are working out to try and keep yourself motivated, you know? a "i need to lose 10 pounds by the end of the month and i need a song that will help me do that" song. (in my case anyway, lol)
2 / DON'T THREATEN ME WITH A GOOD TIME
i lost a bet to a guy in a chiffon skirt, but i make these high heels work.  
i told you time and time again, i'm not as think as you drunk i am.
good time by far has the best (funniest) lyrics out of the whole album.  this song is such a party ballad.  something you'd totally blast at a party where everyone is going crazy and getting drunk.  one of the best parts of this song (besides the lyrics) is the "rock lobster" sample that goes perfectly with this party ballad.
3 / HALLELUJAH
my life started the day i got caught, under the covers with second hand lovers.
hallelujah is a song about sin, and how nobody is perfect, and how everybody is a sinner.  and that is okay.  jump up, move your body, and scream "hallelujah"!!  this song has such an amazing beat that you find yourself dancing and clapping along to more often than not.  another fun, party ballad.
4 / EMPEROR'S NEW CLOTHES
welcome to the end of eras.....
this song screams halloween to me.  it may be because brendon turns into satan in the video, it may be the sound that makes me think of  "the nightmare before christmas", it can be anything about this song, honestly.  emperors has a super ghostly, creepy, halloweeny, feel to it in both the lyrics and the music.  truly a masterpiece.
5 / DEATH OF A BACHELOR
i'm walking the long road, watching the sky fall...
death of a bachelor is a total frank sinatra sounding song.  totally something that panic! has not done before. (every panic! album is very different) i can totally picture this song being played at an old bar, with girls in poofy dresses and crazy curly hair and guys in old, white button down shirts and jeans, with slicked back hair, dancing and singing along to this song.  with the wonderful sound of the beat, and the beautiful lyrics about brendon saying his farewell to his bachelor days, this song is the total package.
6 / CRAZY = GENIUS 
if crazy equals genius, then i'm a fucking arsonist.  i'm a rocket scientist.
crazy = genius is a very upbeat sinatra sounding song.  the beat makes you think of a circus, or an old disco.  the lyrics make you think it belongs in a old movie.  this song is something you jump up, sing, and dance along to, something i'd totally blast at a birthday or a dance.  one of my absolute favorites off of the album.
7 / LA DEVOTEE
drinking white wine in the blushing light, just another la devotee.
everytime i listen to this song, i feel like i'm driving on the streets in california.  neon lights shining behind the windows of the car, the palm trees laying over the city, the blue ocean waves crashing against the sand, i feel like i am in la.  i want to get in the car, and drive to beautiful los angeles california everytime i hear la devotee.  and, i miss la like crazy even though i was there in november, if you couldn't tell.
8 / GOLDEN DAYS
we'll stay drunk, we'll stay tan, let the love remain. and i swear that i'll always paint you, golden days.
golden days starts out with the lyric "i found a pile of polaroids in the crates of a record shop", which ultimately makes me think of polaroids and a record shop.  and a romance surrounded around polaroids and a record shop, which sounds like an amazing relationship.  the lyrics of this song are amazing.  i was instantly in love with this song the moment i heard the little snippet off ESPN that was all over tumblr.  it is lyrically beautiful, the sound is beautiful, the feeling i get when i listen to this song is beautiful, all of it is beautiful.  by far, my favorite song on the album.
9 / THE GOOD, THE BAD AND THE DIRTY
if you want to start a fight, you better throw the first punch.  make it a good one.  
tgtbatd is a total fight song.  i can picture people sitting on old cars watching a massive fight happen while this song is playing.  with it's high beat and catchy lyrics, this song is very addictive and will get stuck in your head for a very long time.
10 / HOUSE OF MEMORIES
and when your fantasies, become your legacy, promise me a place, in your house of memories.
this song puts me on the verge of crying everytime i hear it. it is a very sweet love/breakup song talking about how even though we are miles apart and even if you become wildly successful, please remember me and all of our memories. this song is another one of my favorites on the album
11 / IMPOSSIBLE YEAR
there's no sunshine, there's no you and me, there's no good times, this impossible year.
impossible year is the perfect way to end this album.  this song sounds like it was sung my sinatra himself.  everything is awful and sad, this impossible year.

this album is amazing.  i feel the motions, the happy, the sad, and every little thing in between.  every lyric, every beat, every little thing about this album is amazing.  as much as i love this album, i still love too weird more.  but just because it's not my favorite panic! album doesn't mean it still isn't short of beautiful or amazing.


RATE/ 10/10
i recommend this album for anyone who is willing to listen!!

kisses! until next week! 
candi / savannah 

ways to stay relaxed / have personal time!

happy 2016! i haven't written on here since the beginning of october!  i had a lot happen the last couple of months, i'm not going to go into detail, but i took a break from any and all social media for a little bit.  now, i'm back and ready to get back into it all!
a goal i have had for the new year is to take more time for myself and not be on a screen all of the time.  so, since the new year, i've been taking an hour (sometimes longer) to do things off of a screen and to take time for myself, and i have found it has improved my mood, my headaches, and my sleeping patterns! so, i thought i would share with you all the things i do to have personal time and stay off of a screen!
1 - READ!!
i love reading.  but i never do it!  even if i do, i tend to opt for an online book then an actual, paper book.  i got some books for christmas, and i love to sit and read them!  i would recommend right now, to stop whatever you are doing, (unless you are just reading this post, then wait until the end and go do this) and go to your local library or bookstore, and get a book!! i promise you won't regret it!
2 - color in a coloring book
this one seems a bit odd, but trust me.  go get some colored pencils, a coloring book (whether it is an adult one or a kid one), turn all distractions off, and just sit and color!  it is tons of fun! not only does it bring back childhood memories and/or make you feel like a child again, but it also is super relaxing!
3 - write thoughts down/write in your journal
i love journal writing and would highly recommend it for anyone.  it helps to get all of your thoughts out of your head and onto paper and it makes it easy to reflect on your day.  another reason i would highly recommend journal writing is because it is so much fun to go and look back on your old journals and to see the progress you have made over the years.  i tend to start the week by writing down weekly goals, and during my hour of "no-screen" i write my thoughts, a lot like a "thought journal, or whatever else i want to write.  at night i write about my day and reflect back.
4 - take a nap
there are days where i feel lousy and sick and all i ant to do is lay in bed and sleep.  so that's what i do! nothing wrong with that.
5 - pamper
fun fact about me before i start this part of the post - i have never been to a lush store in my life! i don't have one where i live, and everytime i go shopping in the bigger towns around me, they don't have a lush wherever we go! how lame.  anyway, i love to pamper myself.  run a hot bath, stick a face mask on, put bubble bath or a knockoff bath bomb in the bath, and then just lay and relax for a bit.
6 - take a walk /bike ride/etc...
my whole downstairs is wood flooring.  so one of my absolute favorite things to do is put on my roller blades and ride them downstairs.  it is so much fun and so relaxing!  i also love to go on walks around my neighborhood.  hikes? not as much my style but also a very great idea.  i also love to ride my bike around as well.  try it!! it is really good to get out and get some fresh air.
7 - yoga / stretching / dancing / exercising
must-have!  i used to dance when i was younger, and i take a dance class at school, and it is soo much fun!  i love to sit and do yoga routines i found on pinterest, or sit and stretch, or to do some exercises! great way to relax as well as stay fit!
those are all the things i do to relax and that i would recommend to all of you! if you have any other ideas, please comment them down below, or tweet, instagram, email, or facebook them to me!! (links are all on the side bar!!)
i hope you all have an amazing week!
until i post again,
savannah/candi